Frenzy Gal

2012-01-23T14:55:00.003+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI, XIN NIAN QUAI LE!

Hahahah its CNY tdy! So happy, dont knw for what also.

Im like at my vietnamese aun't house right now eating goodies.

Gonna be fatter alrd sia. Sad life.

Btw, tmr is gonna be 4e2 get together day! After a year plus..

Lika weird eh! But im fucking happy cause we'l get to see each other.

Saw fattah, fifi & rafiq at e interchange last week.

Kristen & i were planning to take 965 long ride!

We caught up with old stuff and then fifi took e bus with us since he had to go home.

Talked more nonsense about school & al! It was really nice seeing everybody again.

AI da bestttttt. <3 I really wish i can go back! Oh well.

Okay then, im gna stop whining non stop about AI. Cant wait for tmr! Bye! (:

Sometimes, i think of you & wonder, if you ever think about me.

Or whether you even remember me.

2012-01-08T22:00:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow, im going back to the shithole! :(

Shithole=Innova Junior College!

I swear i cant wait to get outta here like nobody's business.

How i wish holidays were longer. Okay can, im asking for too much.

But lets look at the bright side! There's only one year left.

So im gna work my ass of this year & get really good results for As.

I mean even if i get outta the school, ive to happily do it right!

All i want now is to get a place in NUS!

And im going to do everyth to achieve it! Cheers, drink to that!

Ile be going back to AI tmr for IJ marketing drive!

I mean, who promotes their school to get more students?

Pathetic sia! Oh well, atleast ile get to see AI after so long!

Yayeee & all my juniors & good friends who are taking their results!

All the best people! No matter what the outcome is, uve done ure best! :D

2012-01-03T11:49:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODEH!

It's a brand new year with a brand new start!

Ive like a zillion resolutions this year alrd.

1. No emotional attachment to any guy.

2. Study super hard & ace my A levels.

3. Get to NUS Faculty of Arts & Social Sciences.

4. Be a better daughter to my parents.

5. Lose freaking weight.

6. Grow taller! :(

7. Save money for prom.

8. Be a hardworking & conscientious student at IJ.

9. Buy more clothes.

10. Get my driving license once i turn 18.

11. Get to a club when i'm legal.

12. Be less talkative.

I knwww. It's damn long right! Im full of long stories, as always.

And as for you, ive moved on & accepted facts alrd.

I wouldnt wna emo one corner on a new year.

Ile just take it that 2011 was a nightmare & pray hard that 2012 will be fruitful.

If not awesome, atleast a little better. Please god? I love you!

After all, we knew we werent right for each other, right from the start.

And while everyone goes school tdy, i chill at home!

Because school starts only on 9th for me. Hehehe all the best people.

Especially to my darling sister who's going to sec 1 tdy! <3

2011-12-28T17:44:00.003+08:00

They say when you lose something or someone, you gain another.

I don't know how far it is true but inevitably, it does happen.

When he hurt me, i got you. When you hurt me, i found people as well.

People who truly care about me. People who have emotions.

But should i give myself a chance again? Or should i just forget everything?

Should i stop dreaming about being with the person i love and start learning how to love the people who love me instead?

2011-12-27T12:01:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! (:

Christmas was quite awesome this year.

It wasn't as boring as how it was last year!

Spend the eve at my dad's friend's house. Had gift exchanges!

I got some pretty good stuff. Yayeee!

Christmas morning was spend going to mummy's side grandma's house!

And then, i met up with divya to go to sasi's house!

I was practically killing my legs with the high heels. :(

Had fun there for a short while & then left!

I went to meet my awesome bestie!

We went for dinner, talked crap & homed after that!

I miss her very much. She's in Jakarta now.

Have a fantastic & safe trip, dear! :D

So, that's how my Christmas was. Hopefully, new year is better!

And my homework is piling up. Somehow, i can't bring myself to sit down & do it.

Lucky school starts on 9th for me! Ile have a week to do. (:

2011-12-23T11:43:00.002+08:00

I want you to look back and miss me.

I want you to realise how much you have hurt me.

I want you to come back and give it a second chance.

I want to have the motivation to study.

I want to do extremely well for my A levels.

I want to get to NUS Faculty of Arts & Social Sciences.

I want to have the best time in IJ next year.

I want to look beautiful, inside and out.

I want to make more true friends.

I want to prolong my friendship with my best friend.

I want to continue having a happy family.

I want to have a splendid and peaceful 2012.

~This is all i want for Christmas~ (:

2011-12-22T16:26:00.005+08:00

I feel like crap tdy. Oh well, more like the past few days.

Everytime i tell my myself im gna forget you & move on, i can't.

It isn't as easy as it sounds. Although we nvr had much tgt, i can't move on.

If i can forget someone i liked for so long in a month, why not you?

Because, you were the reason i even forgot him.

So am i supposed to find someone new?

If that is the only solution, ild rather like you forever.

I don't wanna find someone & get hurt again.

With you, things are more realistic. Im not in my own fairytale.

I know what im doing. I know it isn't love. I know it's an attraction.

Yet, you mean so much. Those little moments mean more than you'll ever know.

I'm not gonna say you feel the same way because i don't know.

I won't make myself happy like how i used to previously.

But i do know it's only fair you give me what i deserve. An explanation.

A freaking long explanation to justify your own bloody actions.

All you did was to hurt me by coming in & out of my life as you please.

You took me for granted & i let you. I accepted you everytime you came back.

Because i trusted & believed that it'll be different.

That was one. But the worst part was that you lied through your teeth.

I didnt ask for this to happen. You started it & ended it.

I was just like a fool in the middle, accepting everything without complaints.

Sometimes i wonder, did you really mean those words you said?

Or were they just bloody sweet talking? Did not mean anything at all?

Maybe you thought it was easy to hurt someone who has been hurt before.

Well, congratulations! Because, you made me fail for the second time in life.

Or maybe i should thank you? For making me realise what a jerk you are.

Because, after you, ive finally woken up. I won't fall for bullshit any longer.

2011-12-21T11:47:00.003+08:00

Yknw what this picture describes?
You! Because you're a lying fucking jerk.
Maybe you didnt do certain stuff in the picture.
But most of it, you're like number one at it.
I hate you more than him. Because you fucking knew i was heartbroken.
You portrayed to be a better person. So i trusted you like an idiot.
Thankyou so much for breaking me even more! You the besttt.
I really wonder sometimes, why i even agreed to talk to you.
I thought talking to you would heal me.
Give me another chance to believe in love again. But i guess i was wrong.
Because if he was a jerk, you were worst.

FINALLY, I'M SEVENTEEN. (:

2011-12-15T12:23:00.004+08:00

Kristen's pretty card!

Happy Birthday To Me! (:

Hahahah ytd, i finally turned 17, while my other frends turn 18 soon.

But still, i love my birth date! December is e best month ever.

Kristen brought me out lika boyf & spend tons of money.

Ure e best babe! She treated me to swensens & pastamania.

And gave me a lovely card! Thankyou so goddamn much.

Everyth was the best ytd except for one main thing. You.

Last year, this day, you made it special for me.

But this year, you aint even in my life anymore.

Sometimes, i wonder whose fault it was. Maybe, it was mine.

But you weren't a saint either. Whatever it is, it's too late to hope.

But from the bottom of my heart, i miss you. (:

2011-12-10T12:04:00.002+08:00

Im back from aussie, like finally!

The trip wasnt greaaaat unfortunately.

Anw, it's the 10th & still havent touched my freakin books.

To be honest, i dont feel like studying. Who wants to during a holiday?

Oh well, no choice. Sokayy, i promise ile study soon!

School only reopens on 9th jan anw. A month countdown!

On a brighter note, MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING! (:

Yaye, 4 more days. Im shooo excited. I like birthdays for some reason.

Went to watch New Year's Eve with Kristen ytd!

Super awesome show, i swear. I wish ile have a bright new year.

2012, please be kind to me. :D

2011-12-02T13:11:00.002+08:00

I shall relieve boredom by doing this! (:

1) Put your iTunes on shuffle. Give me the first 6 songs that pop up.
- Mistletoe- Justin Bieber
- With ure love- Cher Loyd
- I'm into you- Jennifer Lopez
- Battlefield- Jordin Sparks
- Wish you were here- Avril Lavigne
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
- David Archuleta! (:
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
- "Easy on the melodrama", i quip, thankful no one else is in the salon.
4) What do you think about most?
- I think about alotta stuff!
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
- Floorball practice at 1230pm! :Najah
6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
- With, duh!
7) What's your strangest talent?
- I can predict what's gonna happen, sometimes!
8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)
- Girls, don't ever trust a guy fully!
- Boys, treat your girl right!
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
- Yup!
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
- Ive nvr played it before!
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
- Yup, ive phobia of heights & being left alone. :(
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
- Nah.
13) What's your religion?
- Hinduism!
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
- Shopping!
15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
- Behind! Camera shy ah. :(
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
- Boys like girls!
17) What was the last lie you told?
- I told my mum i woke up at 11 when i only woke up at 12!
18) Do you believe in karma?
- Yeah!
19) What does your URL mean?
- It means rain depresses you while rainbows impress you!
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
- Greatest weakness: Getting hurt by people i love.
- Greatest strength: Being able to hide my feelings & acting tough.
21) Who is your celebrity crush?
- David Archuleta! <3
22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
- Nahhh, but i might try!
23) How do you vent your anger?
- Crying it out!
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
- Yup, seventeen magazines! (:
25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
- Talking on the phone!
26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
- Nah, i stil have more to accomplish!
27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
- Hate: People wailing loudly!
- Love: Raindrops!
28) What's your biggest "what if"?
- What if i don't make it to the university? :(
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
- I believe in ghosts. Aliens are rubbish.
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
- Right arm: My bottle!
- Left arm: Phone!
31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
- Ermm, food?
32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
- Kahang, Malaysia!
33) Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
- East Coast!
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
- Zayn Malik! (:
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
- It means overcoming every obstacle to be successful!
36) Define: Art.
- Every talent!
37) Do you believe in luck?
- Yup!
38) What's the weather like right now?
- Cloudy!
39) What time is it?
- 13:48!
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
- No & no!
41) What was the last book you read?
- Flawless!
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
- Ewww no!
43) Do you have any nicknames?
- Livi!
44) What was the last movie you saw?
- The sisterhood of travelling pants 2!
45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
- When i knocked my head against the ground! :(
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
- No!
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
- Yeah, reading all my books!
48) What's your sexual orientation?
- Ermm, idk?
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
- Yeah, plenty!
50) Do you believe in magic?
- Nope!
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
- Kinda.
52) What is your astrological sign?
- Sagitarius!
53) Do you save money or spend it?
- Save & spend!
54) What's the last thing you purchased?
- Ice creaaam!
55) Love or lust?
- Love!
56) In a relationship?
- Single!
57) How many relationships have you had?
- 2!
58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
- Nope! :(
59) Where were you yesterday?
- At home.
60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
- Yeah, like almost everyth!
61) Are you wearing socks right now?
- Nahh.
62) What's your favorite animal?
- Doggy!
63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
- Ile just be myself!
64) Where is your best friend?
- At school!
65) Spit or swallow?(;
- Swallow!
66) What is your heritage?
- Indian!
67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
- Trying to sleep!
68) What do you think is Satan's last name?
- Idk & idc!
69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?
- Nah!
70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
- Maybe!
71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
- Ask someone idle to save it & rush to work!
72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
a) nah, i keep it to myself!
b) i try to be nice to everyone & do all the craziest things!
c) quite..
73) You can only have one of these things: trust or love.
- Trust! Love is nothing without trust.
74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
- Crush by david archuleta!
75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
- 2884!
76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
- Love, trust & commitment. (:
77) How can I win your heart?
- Idk? It just happens!
78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
- Yeah!
79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
- To do everyth i can to attain my goals in life!
80) What size shoes do you where?
- 3!
81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
- Idk, whatever thats meant to be written.
82) What is your favorite word?
- Love!
83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word:heart.
- Love!
84) What is a saying you say a lot?
- Go & die! Hahaha.
85) What's the last song you listened to?
- About you now: Sugababes!
86) Basic question: what's your favorite color/colors?
- Pink & Blue!
87) What is your current desktop picture?
- Fireworks!
88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
- Noone in particular.
89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
- If i still like someone..
90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
- Screeaaaaam!
91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
- Read people's mind!
92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
- My sec 2 life!
93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
- A part earlier this year.
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
- Im not answering this!
95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
- Paris, France! (:
96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
- Ermmm, yeah..
97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
- When i was younger!
98) Ever been on a plane?
- Yup!
99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
- Hell yeah, it's december!
100) Give me your top 5 favorite songs now.
- With ure love- Cher Loyd!
- I'm into you- Jennifer Lopez!
- We found love- Rihanna!
- Love you like a love song- Selena Gomez!
- All about tonight- Pixie Lott!

2011-12-02T12:17:00.002+08:00

The reason why im blogging tdy is because of a book i read ytd!

It's titled, "flawless." Not that im a retarded nerd but i love reading books!

Not those stupid sci fi books but those romantic american love stories stuff!

They sound bimbotic but they're really nice yknw.

For some reason, ive always admired the american lifestyle since sec school!

Kristen & i used to read books like psycho! We still do.

Sometimes, i wish i could leave Singapore & study there! The life there sounds nice.

The book really made me understand certain stuff.

That feeling when you thought uve forgotten someone but you haven't.

Maybe i haven't really forgotten you. Because if i did, i wouldn't cry ytd right?

It's been what, a whole year since i last cried over you?

Last year this time, i was that totally heartbroken girl crying everyday.

I thought this year, ile be strong! I guess not.

But no matter what i do, things will never be the same way.

I've alrd accepted that fact. But have i moved on?

I was thinking of talking to my bestf about it but should i really?

Oh well, maybe i should just ignore & get on with life! (:

2011-11-30T18:18:00.002+08:00

In another life, i wouldn't make you stay.

Because if you wanted to, you wouldn't even have got away.

2011-11-29T18:48:00.002+08:00

Yayyeeee, my mum finally allowed me to rebond my hair!

I freakin hate my current hair sia.

It's kinda straight but e waves are just annoying.

So i wanna try rebonded hair & cut it into a long bob again!

Like Selena Gomez's above! Hopefully, it looks nice. Wish me luck~ (:

2011-11-26T16:45:00.006+08:00

Today is an example of a day we all wna chill at home & just read a book.

Atleast for people like me. Reading a book might seem nerdy!

But honestly, it's kinda fun. Depending on the book you borrow!

I love reading chick flicks & those romantic stories in US or Paris.

Makes me forget the world & feel like im one of those characters!

Somehow, romance just doesnt get to me anymore.

Maybe because i dont exactly believe that love even happens to me.

It sucks to have liked two people, only to find out that it didn't mean a thing at the end.

For someone who doesn't fall in love easily, it was hard for me.

So is it surprising to know that i'm actually kinda upset that the guy i liked is attached now?

Not that i still like him but it still hurts. Maybe it isnt just meant to be.

Whatever it is, i got immune to the feeling. I just can't see any guy in that way anymore.

My friends say the one isn't there yet. But is there really the one?

Call me pessimistic but i don't believe in it for myself.

Currently, i don't need a guy or love. I just wanna study hard & be successful.

I wanna have enough cash to travel the world! Ive changed a lot.

From that girl who thought love was everyth to a more realistic one.

Honestly, i dont know which one i prefer but what i am now is definitely much better!

2011-11-24T20:40:00.005+08:00

Smileeee and let the whole world wonder why~ :D

2011-11-23T17:36:00.011+08:00

I gave you all my love,

You broke me,

And now it's hard for me to trust anyone anymore.

2011-11-22T17:05:00.003+08:00

It's christmas season, people! One of the best times in the year!

SNOW SNOW SNOW! I wish i lived in a country with snow! :(

No school, no stress, holidays etc etc! Hell yeah!

Im going back to australia, AGAIN! Ikr, boring.

But my dad wants to so yeah. Well, atleast i get a break from Singapore!

Not that im dissing my country but it's kinda annoying yknw.

With all the bullshit crap & stuff. Going to overseas means running away.

Which means i wont have to face life for awhile!

I dont have to go to school! Honestly? I hate IJ.

It's just stupid. I can't be myself. I can't find friends who're my type.

It's annoying, the way it is. The people, the life, everyth.

You gotta pretend to be someone else to get through. No thanks, ile rather be hidden.

Oh well, ONE YEAR MORE! Ile just push myself.

Hopefully, university life gets better. (:

2011-11-21T19:31:00.003+08:00

RICHARD(III) is so over! It was super boring!

And idk wtf they were even talking about though.

It's like those super cheem literary language! Duh, its literature!

Clearly, i love lit but not those long boring theatre stuff!

After watching e play, i got back some AI memories.

Random right? I knw! But nothing can change my love for AI.

AI was e best place on earth! We had stupid conflicts & al but stil, e best times were there!

The best people were there. The best moments of life happened there.

Richard sparked my memories of lit classes in sec 2 where we had drama sessions!

We used to learn romeo & julie, hamlet & al! It was really fun.

Phantom of the opera during music classes. Oh wells, best memories!

But life has to go on right? So, Richard was a boring three hour play.

After that, div & me went citylink mall to eat at just acia!

And then, we went to clarke quay to walk arnd boat quay!

Havent really gone to that place in like ages! But it has a really good view. (:

Saw the "hooters" there & got reminded of Hanafi! Hahaha, his sick mind!

And then chaoed of to my aunt's house for deepavali open house!

Saw lydi after so long! We talked like there was no tomorrow! Hahaha, cousins ftw!

I miss her so bloody much i swear!

And then, it was end of saturday! (:

It's monday & im not feeling well. Sorethroat, fever, ear problem etc etc.

Didnt go to school for two days alrd! Back to school tomorrow!

Which means it's back to lessons! That's all for my boring life. Gdbye!

2011-11-17T16:25:00.002+08:00

HELL YEAH, IM PROMOTED! OMG OMG OMG. (:

awesomeee shitzs. i so cant believe i got promoted!

e bad part? A levels is just one freakin year away!

which means ive to start working my ass off for it from now!

sokay, i did it for my Os. ile do it for my As.

come on, livi! it's just one last cambridge exam. you can do it!

e worst of e worst? one of my closest friends got retained.

it's gna be a big boom for me cause we got super close.

to be honest, i haven't exactly faced the fact that im not gna see her in class anymore.

it's hard. i thought we could do our A levels tgt! i thought we could have prom tgt!

oh well. :( i believe that everyth happens for a reason though!

don't worry babe, you can do it! because ure intelligent!

regardless of whether ure repeating or gng to poly, ile always be there for you!

thankyou for all the awesome moments we've had so far. <3

2011-11-16T20:55:00.002+08:00

heyllooo blog!

im back again! school's been really tough.

havent really got time to post any stuff here.

but yeah, i kinda miss blogging! it's basically the only place

i can vent whatever i want to without getting judged!

cause in this world, everyone judges you just like that!

OP is done which means PW IS FREAKIN OVER!

yeah baby! no more documents to submit, no more sleepless nights.

but i kinda miss IJ108 though! hanafi, marie & hanisa!

we may have gone through a rough path but we still made it together, as one!

and i really wna thank you guys for being the awesomest groupmates ever! <3

promotion results are tomorrow.

the worst part? idk if im even promoted! i got 4 credit points.

which is 2 points away from the passing grade which is 6!

dayuuuum, i so don't wna retain! it's a waste of precious time.

im just gna keep my fingers crossed & pray for the best!

2011-10-16T22:15:00.003+08:00

Hey bitches, im back!! Midcourse is so over. But im gna fail.

Honestly, i think im gna retain in JC1. I failed my H1 math & H2 econs so far alrd.

Passed tamil with an A! Oh wells, maybe i should pursue a degree in tamil sia!

Seriously, its prolly the only subject i can pass! GP, H2 history & H2 lit results this tuesday!

Damn, im afraid. :( Ile just prepare myself for e worst though!

PW's a pain in the neck nowadays. We've to chiong WR, OP & I &R. Wtf?

Sometimes i ask myself, why am i in a jc? I could've happily enjoyed my life in a poly!

After all, i was thinking of going to Ngee Ann! Screw my life.

Sokay IJ, ile take ure nonsense. Hopefully, i promote. Then, im left with just 1 more year!

Yeah baby, then its the U! So i shal start working my butts off for A levels.

Apart from that, life stil sucks kinda bit. Well, especially for issues related to you.

I knw im kinda pessimistic but i really think im not meant for love.

It never goes well for me somehow. I liked someone for 4 years but it never went well.

I fell for you but likewise, you dont feel the same way.

Maybe im just not good enough. Its okay if i wasn't.

But you didnt have to lie blatantly & bring all my hopes down.

How could you not have felt the chemistry i did? Maybe it was me.

I overthink, ALOT. I feel like giving up. I dont wanna wait again.

Ile just move on & never fall again. Cause when i dont fall, it wont hurt.

Ile live a happier life this way right? So yeah. So, thats all for now. Goodbye!

2011-09-21T00:30:00.005+08:00

GOODBYE AI!

HELLOOO INNOVA!

Hey blog! Im back, officially! After so so so long. I guess, i kinda missed blogging. Oh well, i wanted to save this blog for my AI memories but i guess, i need something to rant on now. Things have obviously changed. So yeah, i went to IJC! But life so isnt blissful there. I wish i had gone to a poly mann. The competition is lesser & obviously, there are more mature people there. So much for thinking JC would have career minded mature people. Honestly, it's fill of bitches & kpo freaks who just wna knw whats going on in everyone's life. But its okay, im kinda used to this kinda stuff alrd. I have awesome frends who make it up to the suckish parts though. Like sasi, divya, suhaimi, priya, hanisa, priyankah etc etc. Ive got my floorball girls & rasalas as well! (: Yeah, so its kinda manageable. But i suck at my school work. I think im gna retain. :( Im like failing most of my tests & idk almost everyth. Theres PW which is screwing up my entire life now! God, my life is really in all complicated & messed up now. So, there was another major change in my life as well. I forgot that jerk whom i liked for the past four years of my life. It wasnt like i forced myself to. I just did, thanks to another guy who came into my life. Honestly? Its not like im happy i met him either. Cause unfortunately, life always has nothing good to offer me. It's so weird how he could just erase the thoughts of him within just a few moments we spoke. I mean, people tried for ages. But they nvr managed to make me forget him. But he didnt even try & he could do it. So, i thought he was the one. But i guessed wrong. Cause he was a jerk as well. He came into my life as & when he liked. It was like, i forget him one moment & the next, he's back again. Its like i wasnt important to him at all. If its a game to you, it's not worth playing anymore. Sometimes i wonder, why do i always fall for people that nvr fall back for me? Am i not worth anyth at all? Oh & ive deactivated my fb account until my midcourse is over! This way, i dont have to see shit & get distracted.

2010-11-19T13:29:00.004+08:00

HEYLLOOOOO PEOPLE! (:

first things first, im back from prom alrd! awesomeee or what?

prom night '10 was super duper fantastic! i so dont regret going!

toook loads of pictures & danced like wooooo!

but we didnt have much dancing time so yeah. D:

however, some things spoiled my beautiful night! like whatever.

i made efforts to do something but you still chose to deny!

i dont freakin care alrd. yknw what? i swear, ure gna regret one fine day.

i fucking feel like breaking down right now. ule pay for everyth you did.

nothing happened eh? wow, what a blatant lie! ure so awesome at it!

so what? we're enemies? so, what exactly have i done to agitate you?

i dont even talk to you & you say im annoying. psycho much?

whatever lah kay, go on & live in denial! cause when you wake up finally, everyth's gone.

you & ure stupid ugly face. ure not even good looking & i fell for you.

gosh, idk what i saw right. i should slap myself more than a thousand times!

if you didnt feel a thing, you shouldnt have fucking did anyth, dummy!

you freakin put ure nose into my business all e time what right.

now, uve e bloody cheek to act like nothing has happened!

maybe ure suffering from amnesia? oops, get well soon!

ive all the evidence to prove everyth. ive people to testify as well.

but im not gna waste mine & their time! yknw why? cause ure not worth anyone's time.

so right now, at this minute itself, ile throw you out of my fucking mind!

this time, i wont turn back & look! ile just forget you completely.

but guess what? i wont forget how much you hurt me. you plainly suck.

i hate you so fucking much. ile always claimed to but it wasnt true at all.

right now, i mean it, I FUCKING HATE YOU.

thats it! i flooded 99% of my blogposts bout that motherfucker & now, you wont exactly see it anymore! HOORAY! (:

2010-09-22T18:52:00.002+08:00

HEYLLOO! BREAKTIME FROM STUDYING=DOING LAME QUIZZES! (:

Start at the very beginning, what’s your name?
Liviniyah!

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
Yeah!

If you were invisible for a day, what would you do?
Everything thrilling!

Does the person you like, like you back?
Ermm, i really dk!

What did you do last night?
Study, watch tevee, go to school & use my lappie!

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Yeah! (:

Are you your mum’s favorite child?
Idk, maybe!

Are you happy with the way things are going?
Kinda, not really.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
Yupyup. D:

Sleep on your back or stomach?
On my side! HAHAH!

What were you doing before this survey?
Tumblr-ing!

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
Yes! (:

Your Christmas list consists of?
Dresses, new accessories, bags, shoes, etc. (:

What movie is in your DVD player?
Chasing papi! (:

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
Ild travel the world!

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
Absolutely nothing! tdy sucked.

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
DUH, everytime.

What’s going on tomorrow night?
Freaking school, like everyday.

Do you know a lot of people with the same phone as you?
Not really!

Is your hair curly or straight right now?
Wavy! (:

What do you really think of Starbucks Coffee?
AWESOME~

Does anyone love you?
Idk. (:

Want to be taller or shorter?
TALLER, DUH! any shorter & i can enter pre school! D:

What are you listening to?
My love- pixie lott!

Do you listen to music every day?
YEAH!

Last song you heard?
Pretty Girl- Priscilla Renae

Is the last person that you had a conversation with a male or a female?
A female.

2010-09-21T17:53:00.001+08:00

How to say "i love you" in 100 different languages!

English – I love you
Afrikaans – Ek het jou lief
Albanian – Te dua
Arabic – Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic – Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian – Yes kez sirumen
Bambara – M’bi fe
Bangla – Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian – Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya – Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian – Obicham te
Cambodian – Bong Salang Oun ([ to a female ])
Cambodian - Oun Salang Bong([ to Male])
Cantonese Chinese – Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan – T’estimo
Cheyenne – Ne mohotatse
Chichewa – Ndimakukonda
Corsican – Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol – Mi aime jou
Croatian – Volim te
Czech – Miluji te
Danish – Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch – Ik hou van jou
Esperanto – Mi amas vin
Estonian – Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian – Afgreki’
Faroese – Eg elski teg
Farsi – Doset daram
Filipino – Mahal kita
Finnish – Mina rakastan sinua
French – Je t’aime, Je t’adore
Frisian – Ik hâld fan dy
Gaelic – Ta gra agam ort
Georgian – Mikvarhar
German – Ich liebe dich
Greek – S’agapo
Gujarati – Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon – Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian – Aloha Au Ia`oe (Thanks Craig)
Hebrew – Ani ohev otah (to female)
Hebrew – Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon – Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi – Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong – Kuv hlub koj
Hopi – Nu’ umi unangwa’ta
Hungarian – Szeretlek
Icelandic – Eg elska tig
Ilonggo – Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian – Saya cinta padamu
Inuit – Negligevapse
Irish – Taim i’ ngra leat
Italian – Ti amo
Japanese – Aishiteru
Kannada – Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan – Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili – Nakupenda
Konkani – Tu magel moga cho
Korean – Sarang Heyo
Latin – Te amo
Latvian – Es tevi miilu
Lebanese – Bahibak
Lithuanian – Tave myliu
Malay – Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam – Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese – Wo ai ni
Marathi – Me tula prem karto
Mohawk – Kanbhik
Moroccan – Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl – Ni mits neki
Navaho – Ayor anosh’ni
Norwegian – Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan – Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan – Inaru Taka
Papiamento – Mi ta stimabo
Persian – Doo-set daaram
*** Latin – Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish – Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese – Eu te amo
Romanian – Te iubesc
Russian – Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic – Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian – Volim te
Setswana – Ke a go rata
Sign Language – „,/ (represents position of fingers when signing’I Love You’)
Sindhi – Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux – Techihhila
Slovak – Lu`bim ta
Slovenian – Ljubim te
Spanish – Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili – Ninapenda wewe
Swedish – Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German – Ich lieb Di
Tagalog – Mahal kita
Taiwanese – Wa ga ei li
Tahitian – Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil – Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu – Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai – Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai – Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish – Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian – Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu – mai aap say pyaar karta hoo (the best way )
Vietnamese – Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese – Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh – ‘Rwy’n dy garu di
Yiddish – Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba – Mo ni fe

2010-09-18T21:05:00.000+08:00

Pixie Lott- My Love!

My love, lately I see you just ain't with me
A distance growin', oh, how can this be?
Departing slowly and I don't know how to stop this wind
From the way we're goin' this love is fadin' away

Nobody knows but I know, yeah, I know
They don't see it but I feel it
Without you I never will be as strong
Oh, I need ya, oh, I need ya

You're the definition of a life I would be missin', oh
We can make this right, don't wanna lose
Don't wanna lose your love

I cannot live without you by my side
Take all my love, take my soul, my mind
Too much to let go, don't wanna lose
Don't wanna lose my love

You are my love, don't wanna lose my love

Running in circles, let's get it past the hassle
It ain't worth and this can't work, oh, baby
See my book is filled with so many pages of your memory
Let's finish the story, a never ending story

Nobody knows what I know, yeah, I know
I know you are, this is not just me
Without you I never will be as strong
So come on baby, show me

You're the definition of a life I would be missin', oh
We can make this right, don't wanna lose
Don't wanna lose your love

I cannot live without you by my side
Take all my love, take my soul, my mind
Too much to let go, don't wanna lose
Don't wanna lose my love

You are my love, don't wanna lose my love
You are my love, don' t wanna lose my love

Your love, your kiss, you are the guy I love
That belongs to me and I can't live without you
Don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose my love

You're the definition of a life I would be missin', oh
We can make this right

I cannot live without you by my side
Take all my love, take my soul, my mind
Too much to let go, don't wanna lose
Don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose my love

You're the definition of a life I would be missin', oh
We can make this right, don't wanna lose
Don't wanna lose your love

I cannot live without you by my side
Take all my love, take my soul, my mind
Too much to let go, don't wanna lose
Don't wanna lose my love

You are my love, don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose
You are my love, don' t wanna lose my love

2010-09-18T20:51:00.002+08:00

HEYLLOOOO BLOGGER, ILE RETURN COMPLETELY AFTER THE UNAWESOME O LEVELS! TILL THEN, GOODBYE! :D

2010-09-09T15:29:00.003+08:00

HEYLLOOOO! HOPE THIS QUIZ KILLS BOREDOM! :D

Have you ever been with anyone and thought “I want to be with this person forever”?
nope! (:

Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
with clothes, duhhhh!

Has anyone ever cheated on you? Do you think they would regret it?
nope! (:

Tell me what’s on your mind?
my bestf, him, o levels, shopping & many other stuff!

What do you do when you have a bad day?
listen to music & just emo arnd!

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
YEAH! wouldnt change a thing by devi lovato & joe jonas!

Do you say sorry first?
if its my fault, yeah!

If someone is doing something that upsets you, do you tell them?
yeah! (:

Something you’re happy about?
HAH, that i finally cut my stupid long hair!

Does anyone completely understand you?
yes, my bestf!

Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?
NOPE, unless the person has e power to!

Meet anyone new this year?
nope!

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
nope, i dont think so!

Marriage in your future?
maybe, maybe not!

Are you afraid of commitment?
NOPE! :D

Are you scared of growing old alone?
yeah, actually. it'l be nice to have someone special!

Do you get depressed about things easily?
HAHAHA, if its really affects me, yes!

Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you’ll get it?
YES, I SURE DO! i want to have what i want!

Does anyone love you?
ermm, im not sure.

Did the last person you kissed have tattoos?
i didnt really kiss anyone! (:

Have you ever been in a perfect relationship?
NOPE! im waiting for the one, i guess.

How did you get your last bruise?
i fell down! D:

Do you hate anyone?
nah, i dont think so!

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
NOPE! (: i only like people of the same age as me! :D

Last time you had pizza?
a few months ago, i think. (:

How many days until your next birthday?
HAHAHAH its like 3 months later lah! D:

Are you tired?
nope! im a active person!~

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
Of course. (:

Name something that made you frown today?
some annoying thing i saw on facebook!

Why did you last laugh really hard?
HAHAHAH cause my mum cracked a joke which was hilarious! (:

Do you know anyone who is pregnant?
nope!

How have you felt today?
normal?! :D

What’s the background on your cellphone?
a couple hugging on a patch of grass!

Have you ever tried your hardest but got disappointed in the end?
YES, for exams!

Are you friends with the person who broke you down most?
nope!

What’s the latest you went to bed this week?
3am!

Do you like anyone?
HAHAHA, yeah.. (:

Are you drifting away from any friends?
yeah, maybe some of 'em.

What are you listening to?
wouldnt change a thing by demi lovato & joe jonas! (:

Does the last person who put their arms around you mean anything to you?
yeah, cause shes my sister! (:

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you feel comfortable talking to?
YEAH, quite alot i guess! :D

Do you believe exes can really ever be “just friends”?
idk, why not?! (:

Have you made any mistakes recently?
yeah, pretty much alot!

Where were you at 1:02 AM this morning?
sleeping, duh! :D

Anyone told you a secret this week?
yeah!

What does the 5th text message in your inbox say?
my mum says: can i call you now? HAHAHA!

Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
yes, when i was younger. D:

When was the last time you bought something?
just yesterday!

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
AI prom night, my birthday, working, trying new stuff, shopping & yeah, seeing the result of waiting for him al these while.

2010-09-06T16:17:00.002+08:00

heyllooooooooooo!
its back to updating of my rantings again!
first news: I CUT MY HAIR! :D
wohoooo, people actually miss their long hair but i dont!
i realised short hair is so much cooler cause you feel light!
its like a big mess gone off me! I HAVE A SHORT LONG BOB!
not exactly short but not long either! kay, whatever. (:
well nextly, o levels are nearing/ its like 49 days more to the mega torture!
im sooooo effing dead cause im not exactly prepared!
nvm, this 1 week holidays will be for major O level revision.
yeah right, only if i follow right!
PRELIMS results are kinda out. i nearly passed maths but failed.
this time round, it isnt cause im dumb but cause of carelessness & lazyness!
mrs charles says shes gna help me get an A1! if she does, im so gna worship her!
my mum says she'll faint if i get an A1 for e math in O levels. wth right?!!
I SHAL PROVE! (: teachers's day just passed! it was awesome!
well, mainly awesome cause MR ELFIE LOOKED SUPER DUPER HOT!
we were like, "omg, sooooo hot!", when he was up on stage!
ms chew looked freaking hot too! they're like e best male & female.
ms malini told us bout prom night! MASQUERADE IS THE THEME!
awesome or whattt? i sooo love it! okay then, thats al!
gna go out with kristy to jurong tmr! gdbye! :D

2010-09-02T21:55:00.001+08:00

2010-09-01T01:09:00.002+08:00

DEAR HAIR: im sick & tired of tying you every morning with loads of difficulties & therefore, ive officially planned to chop you off into a long bob this weekend! im gna look shitty but whatever.

I WANT A RIHANNA BOB, SO FREAKIN BAD.

2010-08-28T14:51:00.000+08:00

I wish I could stop lying to myself and everyone else about him. I tell them that I absolutely hate you and think you are a piece of crap for all of the horrible things you did to me. But If I did, I wouldn't spend at least 10 minutes of everyday thinking about you. I miss you, so much. I wanna just walk up to you, grab your face between my hands and tell you...open your eyes, idiot. I still love you all the same.

2010-08-21T11:36:00.001+08:00

Hard To Breathe lyrics

Feel the adrenaline
My hearts beating
I need a doctor cuz
I'm getting sick of love

I'm running short of breath
With every step
In need of oxygen
To run away from this

I faced tha demons that
Took me to hell and back
I'm getting heart attack
Took me a hard attack
I'm counting on you cuz I need you here to save me
If my heart fails

How am I suppose to breathe
When all my heart does is bleed
You're too stupid to see
You're making it hard for me
How am I suppose to breathe
When you're too stupid to see
wat ur doing to me
You're making it hard to breathe
You're making it hard to breathe

It isn't that hard to see
My chest is caving in
Someone help me
I need some life support
Can't take this anymore
Love with caution 'cuz.. (my hearts so weak)
I've been a victim of love and your tha crimial
i counted on u but u refused to save me
an my heart failed

How am I suppose to breathe
When all my heart does is bleed
You're too stupid to see
You're making it hard for me
How am I suppose to breathe
When you're too stupid to see
wat ur doing to me
You're making it hard to breathe
You're making it hard to breathe

It isn't that hard to see
Love is blind but I can see
A place for you and me
I can't go on without you
Baby..

How am I suppose to breathe
When all my heart does is bleed
You're too stupid to see
You're making it hard for me
How am I suppose to breathe
When you're too stupid to see
wat ur doing to me
You're making it hard to breathe

How am I suppose to breathe
When all my heart does is bleed
You're too stupid to see
You're making it hard for me
So hard to breathe

2010-08-19T19:01:00.003+08:00

i feel so effed up, i swear.
i want to feel sick of loving you but i can never feel that way.
i want to feel tired of waiting for you but i cant just stop halfway.
i want to just give up on you but i can never let you go.
i want to think youre imperfect but youre imperfections just make you perfect to me.
i want to be yours forever but deep inside, i know i can never be.

2010-08-18T17:49:00.005+08:00

YOUTH OLYMPIC PREVIEW 110810! :D

2010-08-15T10:38:00.000+08:00

“But, despite the truth that I know
I find it hard to let go and give up on you
Seems I love the things you do
Like the meaner you treat me the more eager I am
To persist with this heartbreak and running around
And I think that I know things may never change
I’m still hoping one day I might hear you say
I make you feel a way you’ve never felt before
And I’m all you need and that you never want more
And we’ll say all of the right things without a clue
And you’ll be the one for me and me the one for you”

2010-08-14T13:04:00.002+08:00

I need to let go the past in my mind. Just let the memories of hapiness still be and leave the rest behind. To move on in life with experience of the bad. See the new, the life & try not to be sad. If I want the happines again in my way, never let the sad memories stay.

ILE POST YOG OPENING CEREMONY PREVIEW PICS SOOON~ (:

2010-08-13T16:50:00.000+08:00

“You could run to the farthest corners of the earth. There’s no place you could go where I wouldn’t love you. Nothing you could do to stop me.”

2010-08-12T21:02:00.002+08:00

THIS IS SUPER SWEET, I SWEAR. (:
(girl) am i pretty?
(boy)NO
(girl)do u want to b with me forever?
(boy)NO
(girl)would u cry if i walked away?
(boy)NO
(she heard enough and waz hurt, she walked away tears ran down her face.)
The boy grabbed her arm:
(boy) your not pretty............, your beautiful
(boy) i dont want to b with u forever, i NEED to b with u forever
(boy) and i wouldnt cry if u walked away, i would DIE!!!
(boy whispers) plzzzzz stay with me
(girl whispers) i will...

2010-08-10T14:03:00.001+08:00

“There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn’t expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don’t go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who never lets go. Someone who cherishes you forever.”

2010-08-09T10:51:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i feel like running away. Running away to a place far far away, where noone can find me. A place where i dont have to face anyone or think of anything that is gonna hurt me deeply.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! (:

2010-08-08T10:54:00.001+08:00

I never found the words to say, you’re the one I think about each and every day.

2010-08-07T12:03:00.001+08:00

Broken Hearted Girl- Beyonce~

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

2010-08-07T10:47:00.000+08:00

“There’s always going to be the one thing you wish for but never get. That one mistake you can never take back. And most of all, that one memory you would do anything for, just to have it again.”

2010-08-06T16:32:00.002+08:00

“I can’t lie to myself. Even if I probably didn’t matter to him at all, i still love him for how he made me feel. I really do hope he knows it because i never told him and i won’t ever get another chance to say it and even if i did, i still probably wouldn’t tell him because i dont have the guts to do so. I love you, i really do. Even if you hated me so much & never wanted to see my face anymore, ild still have a place for you in my heart."

2010-08-06T16:07:00.002+08:00

heyllooooooooooo!
im back to posting bout my own stuff alrd!
well, tdy was national day celebrations as skool! the all red day for me!
actually, tdy's like full of emotions yknw. anger, happiness, hyperness etc.
the thing that triggered my anger e most: the fact that i overslept this morning.
effed up much?! seriously mann. i got up at like, 7? kristen was like waiting for me long ago.
okay, im so sorry love. i really suck, i knw. D: so i got ready freaking fast & chaoed!
took a taxi, picked kristen up & reached skool in time. okay, great!
now whats next? CELEBRATION TIME! ~
at e courtyard, it wasnt that good. cause it was abit effed up with e arrangement.
cause some peepo had joined the 4e2 row & 4e2 peepo didnt have space.
oh well, whatever. at the hall, it was a freaking blast!
4e2 won third for e most enthusiastic class award & racial harmony competetion!
coool or what?! (: & we had awesome class spirit tdy! great job, people!
we gotta make ourselves & ms ong proud~ (:
everytime there was a performance, we were all standing up & cheering!
chaoed up to stage during e last part! it was so freaking fun~(:
took loads of pics with sam, malini, kristen, lucella & many more peeps!
e performances were great too! i love e AI dance e best cause they're really good!
so, in conclusion: my last national day in AI was a freaking blast!
im gna post e pics when i get al of 'em!
anw, coming to other updates!
im gna go to YOG opening ceremony with kristen! are we cool or are we cool?!
its gna be fab to e core! ive never ever been to an olympics opening ceremony so yaye!
however, e bad part would be that prelims are next week. like, omg. D:
this sucks yknw. i havent really been studying these days. thats bad.
im sooo gna die alrd. its okay, i shal start studying properly alrd!
fun aside, studies come first right. oh & another thing.
im infatuated to tumblr & its awesome posts so im gna spill it on blogger.
so look out for more awesome quotes & pictures from there! gdbye~ :D

2010-08-05T05:35:00.002+08:00

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect,you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

2010-08-03T20:37:00.002+08:00

All I want to do now is to leave. Why? I want to go back when my life was just simple and away from you. I never expected that my emotions would be this loud affecting what we have. But I guess I just can’t. Without strings attached, I feel so connected to you. Why do I have to feel this way? Why?

MY BRAINS ARE GETTING FRIED THANKS TO O LEVELS. D:

2010-08-02T21:58:00.001+08:00

“Maybe I’m just too stubborn to learn. Maybe I just love the feeling of being in Love. Maybe I just can’t help but try and bring happiness to someone I really care about, even if my story doesn’t always end happily.”

2010-07-25T19:10:00.002+08:00

When you love someone, you don’t just love them for the good parts. But you love them for all their flaws and every mistake. Even when their past ugly; you learn to accept it. Even when their everyday lifestyle isn’t the best, you help them get by and continue to love them no matter what. Nothing doesn’t get in the way of you loving that certain person, not even another human being. That’s what love is right? I have that for you. It’s crazy but hey, love has no age right?

2010-07-16T06:31:00.001+08:00

I don’t know where I stand with you,
And I don’t know what I mean to you.
All I know is everytime I think of you,
All I wanna do is be with you.

2010-07-15T17:08:00.001+08:00

I'm holding on to the thought that you are not mine. I'm gonna look you in the eye, smile and say "you are not mine", then I'd walk away turn around at the last second and say "but I wish you were."

2010-07-14T19:36:00.000+08:00

This will be my last confession,
I love you never felt like any blessing,
Whispering like it’s a secret ,
Only to condemn the one who hears it ,
With a heavy heart.

2010-07-14T19:15:00.002+08:00

heyllooooooooo!
its been like forever since i last blogged!
so i guess its time to relive it again!
first things first, world cup fever!
im soooo uber glad that spain won~
like seriously mann! torres rocks! course, gerrard's better lah. (:
but yeah, they deserved it! germany got third! HAH, serves them right!

so yeah, i totally cant wait for world cup 2014 Brazil!

wohooo, ile be twenty then & so, ile be able to watch it with my frends!

anw, o levels are nearing & im freakin out.

actually, its not that bad cause im studying.

so i shal just continously put in effort & go al e way!

yeah, thats e spirit! ms ong wil be proud to hear me say this! HAHAH.

my only worry: E MATHS. D:

its alright, its okay! practice makes perfect! so thats settled then.

oh & you. i seriously am stil stuck on you.

am i stupid or am i dumb?

but yeah, im just a mixture of both.

am i just believing nonsense & living in denial?

i really dont know. al i know is that being in love brightens my day somehow.

its hurts at times but everyth isnt perfect what right?

al i can say would be that you relived my hopes for a minute & tore them apart the next.

ive been waiting, ile just wait awhile more. im used to it anyway.

note to self: i freaking dont wna go to school.

i mean, im gna miss school but not cause of everyth.

its just some memories that ile never wna let go.

of courseee, my bestf & my close frends too.

maybe some teachers. otherwise? NO WAY~ cause there are some annoying brats.

especially big headed nosey ones who wna complain for nothing.

think ure e best? think again, freak! i dowan to make enemies, i really dont.

but i guess ure pushing ure luck with me alot so get prepared to get it from me then.

alright, im done updating. i cant wait for racial harmony! gna wear cheongsam! ciao!

2010-07-03T14:23:00.002+08:00

"i'll pin love down, make love see, love better believe in me."

world cup fever: since germany thrashed england, i freaking pray hard that argentina
wil thrash germany left right centre tdy~ (:
o level madness: wish me gdluck for my mt o level oral in tuesday! D:

2010-07-01T19:17:00.002+08:00

This is freaking cooool~ check it out! (:

FIFTEEN:
You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.
FOURTEEN:
You walk really slow when you're with them.
THIRTEEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.
ELEVEN:
When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.
TEN:
You smile when you hear their voice.
NINE:
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.
EIGHT:
You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.
SEVEN:
They're all you think about.
SIX:
You get high just from their scent.
FIVE:
You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
FOUR:
You would do anything for them!
THREE:
While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.
TWO:
You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve was missing
ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

HAHAHA coool right? oh well, just a break from studying!
im gna go study again! ciaooooo babehs! oh & note: im superduper hyped tdy! weee! (:

2010-06-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.”

— Sarah Dessen

2010-06-29T22:22:00.002+08:00

heyllooooooo!
its back to schooool right now & guess what?

i seriously am freakin bored & i wna get out of school as fast as i can.

everyone is like counting down to end of school everyday.

well of course, i knw im gna miss alotta precious stuff when i leave e school.

but for now, i dowan to go to schoool.

its boring, annoying & just boring again. i just wna go there to study.

oh & im only done with e math hmwk. english SS tamil is so not finished.

ohmygawd, why are there hmwk when im supposed to be revising?

oh anw, MT orals are next week. mine is on 6th july.

how unlucky am i to be in one of e first classes of e level.

its alrighty, e earlier the better right? ile try my best & pull through.

if i do well in my MT oral & LC, i would've possibility of getting A1 for tamil.

okay, its just a maybe. ile keep my fingers crossed.

oh & mr ong was talking bout our graduation night.

sucks mann this year. i soooo wanted fullerton hotel but its not there this year.

wtf knw, im sooo not gna dress up very nicely cause e place sucks.

NTUC? like, who has prom night there sia? i hope its smth cooler kay.

nvm, e place is not exactly picked yet so we're stil kinda safe.

so its conclusion time now. i wont be posting much due to O levels.

oh well, gotta do freakin well to get into a JC.

so yeah, its time to buck up more & study harder!

it isnt exactly e most exciting thing to do but stil, i gotta do it!

so gdluck to y'al kay! its just another 3 months so lets work hard now~

currently, im gna go do tamil hmwk & english hmwk!

oh & just wna say this, just when i lost al hopes, you made it live again. thankyou! (:

ciaooooo! :D

2010-06-25T20:28:00.006+08:00

heyllooooo! its alrd e 25th so school's gna start soon. D:

im totally regretting it mann. its time to take out ure books & study again.

oh well, went to library with kristen to study just now.

was chem-ing with her. tried to finish it as fast as possible & went to MAC.

kristen treated me! tyvm, babe! (: oh & then we went to e park.

talked & listened to songs. i love e song, why by secondhand serenade!

it was in my fone for a few months & i finally heard it.

funny eh? HAHAHA, well im abit psychotic!

then, went to my house to study somemore. kristen did chem while i did math.

woooh, im done with 4 out of 5 topics for math. i wna finish e last one too.

that way, al my holiday hmwk would be done! am i goood or what?! :D

did i tel you i miss you, like alot? oh well, its okay. im gna see you soon.

honestly, i dont knw if its good or bad. maybe its better i dont see you.

that way, i wont get hurt by ure reaction towards me, would i?

alright then, ima gng off now. ciaooooooooo!

oh & ile be having tumblr updates too~

HAPPY SIXTEENTH, NATASHA! :D

2010-06-24T21:00:00.001+08:00

“You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first.
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go.”

world cup fever; ENGLAND MADE IT TO TOP 16, WOOOOH. :D

2010-06-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.”

2010-06-21T08:40:00.004+08:00

“Part of me will always wonder what happened to us, part of me will always wonder why we stopped talking , part of me will always wonder why you changed, part of me will always miss what we had, part of me will always wonder and think about you, part of me will always want to talk to you but i don’t, part of me will always miss you, part of me will always have feelings for you, and part of me will wonder when will my feelings for you end.”

2010-06-18T12:52:00.003+08:00

yknw what, im pissed. like freaking pissed.

my totally happy mood is spoiled to e uber core.

what the hell is wrong with people these days mann?

one minute they're okay & e next, they just blast.

for no bloody reason at e wrong person. im seriously pissed.

im not ure freakin scapegoat so stop blasting at me uh, mothereffs.

oh its not just one person, its actually alot. i have a life okaaay. my own one.

so i hope ule think bout my feelings before blasting at me like im some dead soul.

oh & even if ywna blast, i hope ule use e right word & not just throw nonsense.

im tired of putting a smile al e time. i just hope ive someone to turn to.

actually at times like these, i would wish for you in my life.

cal me lovesick or whatev ywna say but i just hope ule be there for me yknw.

atleast i could lean on to you & pour out my problems.

however much, these are just empty hopes that might never happen.

but if it ever does, i promise you ile always treasure every moment of it. (:

2010-06-18T10:07:00.003+08:00

“A soul-mate is someone who understands you like no other, loves you like no other, will be there for you forever, no matter what. They say that nothing lasts forever, but I am a firm believer in the fact that for some, love lives on even after we’re gone.”

— PS, I Love You, Cecelia Ahern

2010-06-17T17:04:00.002+08:00

heylloooooooooo!

im freakin happy tdy! why? cause i finally saw kristen aft like.. 4 days!

gawd, i missed her so freakin much! wohooooo~ (:

she bought me a keychain & a bookmark! damn awesome. tyvm, babe!

sorry if i sound lesbian-ish but i just love my bestf cause shes e best!

oh anw, yeah kristen & me were like roaming arnd causeway like no life peepo.

& then we were hungry. so went over to my house to grab a bite!

crapped awhile & then went to fetch my sis from daycare!

& then crapped near e playground while my sis was playing!

then, kristen left & i went home. hmph, now im bored. D:

i dowan to do homework cause i dont feel like it.

why cant teachers get that holidays are meant for having fun & not studying?

i wish i didnt have sooo much of hmwk? nvm, ile start on it next week!

its just a tendency to study e first & last week of holidays! but stil, ive Os in mind!

im stil gna get my >15 points aite! alright then, gdbye! (:

2010-06-16T13:40:00.004+08:00

It’s only after you’ve lost everything, that you are free to do anything
Stand still, look pretty
Truth is, everyone’s going to hurt you.
You just have to find the ones worth suffering for.

-Bob Marley

2010-06-16T00:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAAAY, SAM! :D
may al ure wishes come true & hope you have an awesome bday!
thanks for being a great frend & classmate for e past three years & now too.
wish you al e best in everyth you do! stay happy! ♥

2010-06-15T23:39:00.003+08:00

I’m a strong girl, keeping my shit in line,
even when the tears are streaming down my face,
I still manage to say the words “I’m fine”…
I don’t think anyone will ever know how many times I put the blame on myself

2010-06-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

well, i was thinking about it & ive realised i gotta make it final now.
some people in this world just cant forgive neither can they forget.
im not asking you to just discard what happened but just get over it.
ya knw what? both of us did hurt each other's feelings.
i would appreciate if you stop putting e blame on me. oh & guess what?
ive apologised, not once but many a times. i tried to make things better.
but what do you do? gimme attitude or keep blabbering on & on bout it to people.
lemme tel you this. uve changed for e better, so have i.
i though bout what i did & i realise how childish i was.
uve ure frends & so do i. you dont wna forgive me, i aint gna do anyth bout it.
cause im really sorry bout what i did & i cant undo it either.
al i gotta say is that i hope ule shut e eff up & stop going on & on about forgiving.
cause if you gimme shit, ile give you triple e amount of shit you gave me.
im sorry if i sound harsh but i just cant tolerate the way you act like a drama queen.

2010-06-14T10:36:00.002+08:00

i am the sky & you are the sea;
you are the one who colours me.

2010-06-13T12:52:00.002+08:00

heyllooooo again! check out e lyrics of my latest song addiction!

By My Side- Nicole Scherzinger ft Akon

Ahwwww
Ahwwww

Konvict

Sellin se selling me
To think that I could leave you
Sellin se selling me
To think that I don't need you

Ahwwww

How could I tell somebody what I've been feelling
Looking to be and think that I'll be tripping
But say what you want cuz baby that means nothing
I play this game but now I'm tired of fighting

Who needs your love and I do
Who needs your touch and your call when you caress and I do
Nobody loves me like you
And when I need and I fix nobody do it like you

Sometimes I gotta fight, just to get through it
Think of little me
That I could do (that you on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I could leave you
Sellin se selling me
To think that I don't need you

I got to stop so I don't lose it
Remeber bout the stakes
But I am closing (that you on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I could leave you (on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I don't need you

I'm not your bird without wing, I'm tryin to get higher
Keep on my everything light this fire
Wanna talk about you wanna be about you
Oh cuz I get to live without you

Who needs your love and I do
Who needs your touch and your call when you caress and I do
Nobody loves me like you
And when I need and I fix nobody do it like you

Sometimes I gotta fight, just to get through it
Think of little me
That I could do (that you on my side)
Sellin se selling me

To think that I could leave you
Sellin se selling me
To think that I don't need you

I got to stop so I don't lose it
Remeber bout the stakes
But I am closing (that you on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I could leave you (on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I don't need you

Akon:
Dear God here's my letter
Writing to you coz my life has gotten a lot better
Got heart but I didnt sweat it coz I know you'll be there for me no matter the weather
I just wanna say thanks for beeing there for me everyday
And when I got taken away wanted to get away
You made me stronger to continue the fight
You made me give up the life I had on the streets
Gets rough and I've been on the hold on
Never questioned that you're the one that I call Lord
And just wanna show you I appreciate
Thank you for the rest no matter what it is

Sometimes I gotta fight, just to get through it
Think of little me
That I could do (that you on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I could leave you
Sellin se selling me
To think that I don't need you

I got to stop so I don't lose it
Remeber bout the stakes
But I am closing (that you on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I could leave you (on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I don't need you

Sometimes I gotta fight, just to get through it
Think of little me
That I could do (that you on my side)
Sellin se selling me
To think that I could leave you
Sellin se selling me
To think that I don't need you

I got to stop so I don't lose it
Remeber bout the stakes
But I am closing

2010-06-13T12:40:00.002+08:00

heylloooooo!
guess what, im starting to have a brand new addiction alrd!

tadaaaaah: THE FIFA WOLRD CUP '10! (: since '06, ive been mad bout it.

its funny cause ive never been a die hard soccer fan! its just fun watching countries play.

hahahah psycho right? but seriously mann. went over to my cousin's place ytd.

watched three world cup matches straight! its fun watching as a family.

south korea vs greece, argentina vs nigeria & england vs USA!

gooooo england! i love england! partly cause steven gerrard plays in it!

stayed up til 2.25am just to watch their match with e US.

it was a draw 1-1 with USA ytd! actually, england could have won yknw.

they kinda didnt really play well last night. haiz, its alright!

kay, shutup livi! enuf of world cup madness alrd.

ooh & im gna wear a cheongsam for racial harmony! my vietnamese aunt is lending me.

ohmygawd, its soooo freaking nice! its red & black & sleeveless & freaking expensive.

shes gna sow blue stones arnd e bodice. woooh, thanks aunt! ily loads!

anw, i gotta go do my revision! ive never been studying that much. DIE. D:

okokay ciaoooooooo! (:

2010-06-12T13:24:00.004+08:00

i wanna be the girl that saves him.
the one that he’d be absolutely lost without.
i wanna be the one who makes his life worth living

if you don’t go after what you want,
you’ll never have it. if you don’t ask,
the answer is always no. if you don’t step forward,
you’re always in the same place

and i don’t know how it gets better than this
you take my hand and drag me headfirst

and i don’t know why but with you i’d dance
in a storm in my best dress

when you find everything you looked for
i hope your life leads you back to my door
oh but if it don’t, stay beautiful

and you were wild and crazy
just so frustrating,
intoxicating
complicated,
got away by some mistake..

every long lost dream led me to where you are
others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
that god blessed the broken road
that led me straight to you

so pathetic, i hate you so much, but I still miss you.

2010-06-10T16:03:00.002+08:00

Loving someone no matter what they do and doing anything to make them happy. Real love is being with them no matter what and just willing to do whatever in my mind. That’s love. ♥

2010-06-07T16:06:00.002+08:00

Sports Carnival 2010:

4e2 '10, bestest class ever. ♥

2010-06-07T15:16:00.004+08:00

heyllooooo!
im back aft quite sometime yeah. anw, past days are boring.
like, seriously. my ear pain is subsiding so its good.
well, like finally i found out that its just wax & stuff.
so yaye, i dont have to go to e hospital for checkup anymore. (:
went to school for SS tdy. kristen overslept so she didnt go.
it was effing boring. i freaking regretted going for it.
post test, SBQ inferring lesson & another test aft that.
B-O-R-I-N-G! D: havent been seeing you arnd lately.
accurately, its been 2 weeks exactly. obviously, i do miss you.
though, its of no point. cause ive lost al e hopes ive ever built.
whatever, im tired of rambling on & on bout how much it means to me & so on.
like ive said, "if its meant to be, it'l be." (:
for now, my one love & life would be my O LEVELS & ile just concentrate deeply.
well, tmr's there's this english seminar. hope its fun! alright, bye.

someone asked me if i missed you.

i didnt answer, i just closed my eyes & walked away.

then i whispered, "so much."

2010-06-01T17:56:00.002+08:00

heylloooooo!

first thing, I HATE O LEVEL TAMIL PAPER, 310510.

seriously mann, i wrote rubbish! cause i was freaking distracted!

like please, i couldnt write a single sentence properly okay.

my ear pain was annoying me. could anyth get worser?

oh god, please heal my ears sooner okay. i cant eat, write, talk on e fone or even sleep.

cause im freaking afraid ile turn deaf. lame right? well, thats me!

oh anw, thinking bout it, im like, how can it be?!

the IT would be smth only my bestf knws! but seriously.

its so coincidental & weird. i felt damn uncomfortable lah kay.

but nvm, i tried to ignore that weird feeling & concentrated.

yet, i screwed e papers! i lost 6 marks in paper 2 from just 2 sections.

shit, my A1 has probably fled away! D: nvm, ile prepare myself for nov paper!

oh anw, watched shrek forever after with kristen & farhan on 280510.

it was seriously awesome, except for my moodiness. sorry peepo! D:

aft that, looked for presents for my cousins & my niece.

ohmygawd, beverly's daughter is so adorable mann! :D

bev's my cousin btw. HAHAH, just visited her ytd only. it was niceee.

auntie veron gave me new stuff! a dress & a bag! freaking cool. thanks alot! :D

so yeah, currently gna do my e math hmwk for tml! gdbye & happy hols!

2010-05-27T15:35:00.004+08:00

heylloooooooo!

tdy is PTM day & for e first time, my parents didnt have to come!

wooooh, cause results werent so bad! yayeyayeyaye! :D

i only failed my math with a 41! D: nvm, my L1R4 is a 15!

well, im thinking i should go to milennia institute! its better & easier.

three years but not a waste of time as theres A levels!

attended seminar talks & booths bout polys & JCs with fado, kristen & humairan!

HAHAHA, fado was kacau-ing e peepo! funny sia! (:

oh & i didnt go MT tdy! simple reason: im freaking sick.

seriously, ive ear pain due to e reservoir water ytd & bodyache! D:

oh anw, sports day was awesome ytd!

we were uber late in e morning thanks to e freaking slow 168!

kristen, haziq, sam, malini, reezuan, shahrul, lucella & me were stuck in e bus!

we were cursing e driver al e way! hahaha, poor thing!

lucky we didnt get disqualified! 4e2 did a great job! we have a class tee too! (:

we got third for dragon boating & first for kayaking mixed doubles!

intially, we were last for dragon boat! then, we were like 'e2 push' al e way!

wooooooh, 4E2 ROCKS TO E UBER CORE!

x-country was kinda okay, given e fact that i walked al e way.

kristen & i were walking with rohaizat & he was kacauing some fat person!

busted much? but fun lah! e funny thingy is that we stil got top 100!

therefore, 1 point was added to e class spirit thingy!

yknw what, i finally realised how lucky i am to be in 4e2.

3e2 was seriously a failure. but everyone changed & things are better.

4e2 has class spirit, just like 2e5! im proud to be a 4e2-er! (:

i love e way we unite & do things together as one!

HAHAHAH! (: so yeah, thats al for e updates! ciaooooo!

seeing you like this doesnt put a smile on my face,

it hurts me deeply.

i freaking miss my lost wallet & ezlink card. D:

2010-05-21T22:15:00.005+08:00

heyllooooooo!
im damn freaking bored mann. tdy was boring with a capital B!

like seriously, i didnt even wna come to skool tdy sia.

then my dad's like at home so i just got up & forced my way out. D:

anw, i changed my blogskin! its freaking awesome & i likeee it!

tyvm kristen, for helping me find e other blogskin cause it linked to this!

my blog looks like a love webbie cause its full of romantic stuff.

love pictures, love quotes, love posts & so on. wohoo, i likeeee. (:

anws im drowning in tamil everyday. tml theres tamil lesson from 8-1230.

tdy, next mon & next tue, there are 3 periods of MT! omfg? its annoying sia!

nvm, i shal clear e may paper with an A1 & forget totally about MT aft that!

its alright, just 10 more days to o level MT paper!!

btw, ive started to notice smth. everybody seems moody these days.

well, i guess its due to exam stress/the weather/pms! HAHAH, i seriously dno.

even im feeling that way. its like, e feeling is so pmssy & ywna throw tantrums.

psycho much? i think i really am. D:

well, im done with crapping! ciaoooo!

2010-05-19T23:58:00.004+08:00

heyllooooooo!

got back my MYE results, like finally!

ooh & surprisingly, im freaking damn happy lah kay!

i only failed 1 out of 6 subjects! WOW, quite an improvement.

i scored 14 points L1B4 & 23 points LIB5! stil not good enuf!

to get to a jc, i need like 20 points! three more to go!

oh well, i hope e CA1 percentage thingy al wil help my L1B5 to decrease.

mrs chua said she wasnt happy with my chem. i got 52/85 eh!

wtf? ive never passed comb science before! she wants me to get 60+!

woah, stress sia! its alright, prelims is there! so here goes my ranting of mye results!

B4 for english, A1 for tamil, F9 for e math, B4 for comb sciences, B3 for full geog &

A2 for comb humanities! i failed math freaking badly mann. D:

& i tod i could pass? HAHAHA, i shal laugh at my own face!

anw, theres e DSA JC thingy i can participate in! however, im cca-less. D:

nvm, its always good to try! i might use past SC points & so on.

wish me luck! actually, i wna go MI cause its easier to enter & i cn sit for As!

so yeah, we'l just see! i currently wish i had a CCA sia! too little too late.

holidays are coming & its gna be hectic to e max! lessons every week.

so i guess its considered we have no june hols! its alright, as long as i can pass my Os!

o level intensive programme for MT would be this & next week. WOAH.

even hectic mann! everyday tamil tamil tamil. suffering much? im gna die!

like, seriously. everyth is so o level-ish right now. there aint time to do other stuff.

which means ive no time to even think bout anyth else. no distractions, woooh!

with that, gdluckies to y'al! lets emmerse ourselves in Os prep & do well aite! :D

2010-05-16T16:39:00.001+08:00

hey! check out e lyrics to this song! freaking nice! (:

Key To My Heart- Jessica Jarrell(soundtrack of back-up plan)

Boy you put me on the spot I don't know what to say
But I'm trying anyway
Like my hearts gonna drop
My mind drifts away and I can't control the pains

Words are spinning in my head
Don't know why I'm holding back
I should just tell you how I'm feeling yeah heh

But I don't wanna act a fool
Don't wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don't know what you gonna do
So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I'm feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart

The more I brush it off
Tell myself it's nothing at all
Deeper I fall
And I imagine everyday
A thousand different ways
How you respond to what I say

Am I getting lost in my dreams?
Are you unreachable to me?
Cause these butterflies just won't go away

I don't wanna act a fool
Don't wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don't know what you gonna do
So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I'm feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart

But if I never tell you then you'll never know
And the secret is get-ting heavy to hold
This is more than just a crush
So I may stut-ter when I speak
And my knees may get a little weak
But I've got nothing to lose and only you to gain
Tell me do you feel the same

But I don't wanna act a fool
Don't wanna look confused
If I let you know about the way I feel
Don't know what you gonna do
So I keep it locked inside
And imagine you were mine
And I'm feeling you so close but yet so far
You hold the key to my heart

2010-05-16T15:47:00.003+08:00

heylloooooooooooo!

went to watch the back-up plan with kristen tdy!

i swear its a freaking damn awesome movie kay! seriously.

y'al gotta have to watch it! its a mixture of romance & comedy! (:

anw aft that, kristen walked me back to my house & went to her boyf's house!

guess what, i should listen to you babe. im sorry for being a pms bitch alright.

maybe i should really get rid of my fears & just believe a lil bit.

aft al, its nothing much what right? things did happen aft al.

its not like im hallucinating what. oh well, dear 2010, just show me what's gna happen!

im sick & tired of waiting! if you think its a surprise, its not kay!

im seriously dead scared alrd. its like al of a sudden, im scared to believe in it.

its okay, ile believe kristen! im not gna be stupid! my bestf wont let me down.

so if she says smth, it'l be true. oh pleaseee.

i wish ule promise me that ule never let me down,

cause ive no idea what ile do without you.

anw im freaking excited to see my papers tml! wohooo! gdbye! :D

2010-05-14T22:42:00.005+08:00

heyllooo!

im damn freaking bored! currently listening to online 987fm!
MYE exams are over, like finally sia! (:

had to study study study forever during e past two weeks!

e MYE exams & hot weather had seriously fried my brains mann.

im happy that e weather is kinda cold nowadays. it feels nice!

now, im like free to use e lappie whenever i want til june hols!

well yeah, e whole june hols is strictly for o levels revision & stuff!

anw, geog paper 2 was okay cause i studied properly!

phy/chem sucked! actually, e physics Qs sucked. chem was okay compared to paper 3!

tdy is marking day btw! which means no skool!

it aint a big deal! my mood sucks these days kay.

actually, e credit goes to you! i just feel emo-ish at e thought of you.

its like, just bad feelings uh. like as though, i suddenly lost hope.

ure just putting my hyperness to sleep nowadays! i just dno why.

whatever, im pms-ing! D:

oh btw, i cant wait for e MYE results on mon! usually, ile dread these days!

now, im excited! maybe cause its e first time i put in effort!

pathetic much? nvm, its never too late! i wish ile pass everyth!

thats like fat hopes. im failing math & geog for sure lah. D:

its alright, theres stil hope!

i need stress relief! i wna watch back-up plan & the last song!

i wna watch shrek forever & after also! see? im so greedy!

HAHAHA, i might watch back-up plan with kristen this sun!

i hope we can make it uh! alright then, gdbye! :D

2010-05-11T13:55:00.005+08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyy~
freak damn shit, im screwing up my papers mann. D:
like seriously screwing up! actually, only one bloody paper!
pure freaking geog! gawd, e paper sucked with a capital S!
e questions we had to study for came out but not in e way i expected it to be!
stupid right? it was so not straight foward! im freaking failing paper 1!
i drew waterfalls when i knew it was not e answer at al kay! D:
i suck at physical geog! nvm, im gna pass human geog paper on thurs!
i wish lah! anw chem was alright but i made careless mistakes!
im so dying! wil MYE just end fast anot??? D:
alright, im gna do e math now! im optimistic, ile pass e math! ciaooooo! :)

2010-05-09T15:39:00.011+08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~!
well, i feel happy tdy!
kay, my mood is abit e psychotic. one day, im happy! & another, im not!

haiz, gotta visit e doctor to see if ive some problem lah kay!

anw went out with kristen to e library just now!

she was feeling abit down due to some misinterpretions!

HAHAHA & what i predicted came true knw! wohooooo.

see babe? thats why you should trust me! i guess ure feeling much better now!

be happy kay! cause you & ure baby are meant to be! :D

seriously mann, i feel so damn happy for e both of you!

anw certain things kristen explained to me made me regret what i posted ytd!

well, of course i wont totally regret! i mean, you gotta understand my situation!

im sorry for e damn harsh post ytd lah!

like, which girl would be able to wait for a guy so long without hesitations?

& you claim that i was being evil to you al these while.

please, its being unfair cause ive my side of story to explain also what!

its not like as though you werent evil to me at al.

fine, we were both at fault! so why just blame me to al ure frends?

now, they have a big freaking problem with me cause they think ima bitch!

its freaking unreasonable! whatever uh, i dont deserve this entirely.

e best part is that im not loving you any lesser, no matter how irritated i am.

funny right?! but whatever uh, im just sick & tired of everyth.

ile just freaking get my o levels done & over with!

plus, e weather is so gloomy & its tuning me into e emo mood.

its alright, ile just listen to slow sings & reminisce!

i loveeeee to do it! it just makes me live in my own little world.

so yeah, wish me gdluck for english & MT tml! gdbye!

2010-05-08T11:12:00.005+08:00

im freaking screwed.

like seriously ah. ive freaking no mood to study or do anyth.

i screwed up e freaking phone call i had with kristen ytd.

im sorry babe, i knw you really didnt knw how to comfort me.

i understand that we're in two diff situations now.

so im sorry for just placing e pressure on you kay. D:

well, i should probably start attending courses on how to be a proper bestf.

as for you, im just effed up bout it.

yknw what? im fedup, i just feel like spilling out everyth i have here.

i freaking dont know why ure acting like this kay.

i dont even knw what i did wrong.

yeah fine, one freaking day i major-attituded you!

so what? if i did that one day, ure dng that almost everyday!

you badmouth me to e whole wide world. & im keeping quiet bout it?

if it was someone else, i bet she would've just freaking asked you on ure face!

oh yeah, im dumb what. i just keep quiet & now ure taking me for granted.

i gave you chance. why? cause i fucking like you!

i just cant take it anymore kay. i dont feel like facing you cause i cant bear to.

call me thickskinned but im just accepting facts. it hurts to go through this.

its not one month or two months eh. its so much longer than that.

you might think im overreacting. how would yknw how i fucking feel?

if you think im being thickskinned, ask ure gut feeling if i really am anot.

& you who has a major damn problem,

please, if peepo got over you, move on alright. stop intruding in others' lifes!

influencing ure frend to act according to what you want him to is not gna help.

call ureself a frend? arent you being plain selfish or what?! ftw.

anw its not my fault that its happening to you cause i dont talk to you.

im sorry if i sound so harsh but i seriously cant put up a smile anymore.

i just hope ule understand someday, how i really feel.

2010-05-07T09:58:00.002+08:00

I NEVER TOLD YOU- COLBIE CAILLAT
I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
But I never told you
I just held it in

And now, I miss everything about you
I can't believe that I still want you
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you

I see your blue eyes, everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to, when I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in

And now, I miss everything about you (still you're gone)
I can't believe that I still want you (and loving you, I never should have walked away)
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in

And now, I miss everything about you (still you're gone)
I can't believe that I still want you (and loving you, I never should have walked away)
After all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you

& these are the words ive been dying to say to you.

2010-05-07T09:54:00.003+08:00

heyllooooooo! :D
i dont have to go to skool tdy, wohooooo!
mainly cause i dropped a math & i dont take bio!
so yeah, these shal be e positive impacts of dropping a math!

oh & that i dont have to stress myself up with two maths papers!

but i shal be meeting kristen up to teach her chem. my chem sucks. D:

hahaha kay then, im freaking bored. ciao peepo!

2010-05-06T16:48:00.002+08:00

heylloooooooo world!
i freaking damn hate this weather! okay, random much?!

but seriously, its so hot & its freaking pissing me off.

like, it makes you just get hot tempered & blast at peepo.

so yeah, im sorry kristen, for what happened just now. god, i suck. D:

hot sunny weathers are hatred, rainy cold weathers are love.

cause they make me wna sit down & listen to songs & precious memories.

if i could have a time machine, ile get back there. it was e best ive ever had!

haiz, could i ever get out of love with you?! D:

omfg, you suck! im angry but i cant stay angry with you for long.

call me crazy, obsessed whatev. but you wont understand how i feel right.

its alright, i knw nothing's gna happen cause its impossible.

its funny how i could like you for so damn long.

its funny how i could hate that i love you so much.

its funny how i could choose to wait for you no matter what.

argh, i should shutup & stop blabbering!

if smth's meant to be, it'l be. we'l just see what happens kay?! :D

ooh, currently there are exams going on! oh, so far im happy!

im kinda confident with my papers' results! shit, what if i freaking fail?!

i cant & i wont! cause ive been studying like shit for e past few days!

seriously, like some mad woman. but my dad says im slacking!

wtf, blind or what sia? it just pisses me off when im trying so hard & ure not pleased.

if he werent my dad, ild probably blast at e person knw!

its okay, my mummy says im improving alot! see? she can see my changes.

oh yeah, cause my dad's hardly at home what! WHATEVER.

oh & ive got a feeling i can kinda pass my math. (keeps fingers crossed)

HAHAH, i wish lah kay! physics paper sucks with a capital S!

everyone's like so damn confused. i screwed up e formula for energy!

b'doh or what mann? im just wishing ild pass physics & not fail!

SS & history are also kinda manageable so its okay!

wish me luck for math paper 1, pure geog papers, chem & phy/chem kay! (:

2010-04-30T22:48:00.003+08:00

heylloooooooo~
firstly, i wna wish alvin foo a happy sixteenth!
e memories spent in 2e5 wil be treasured! have a great bday kay! :D
im freaking back again finally!
guess i was busy preparing for e MYE!
well yeah, livi is studying! surprising much?!
actually nope, ive started being serious long time ago!
i guess e fact that i nearly got retained last year affected me alot!
so this year, im gna ace my MYEs & prove to my parents!
prove to 'em that im not slacking!
im aiming for less than 18 points L1R5! (keep my fingers crossed)
alright then, happy things are happening to peepo arnd me!
my bestf has a boyf who loves her freaking alot!
gdluck baybeh, i hope he'l make you believe in love at last.
i really feel happy for you yknw! im sorry if ive been a
effed up bitch who didnt really care that much!
i seriously freaking suck! but yeah, i ive faith that ure
relationship wil last very long!

oh & kristen's loved one, i believe that you wont hurt her in any way!

take care of her kay! though from e way you treat her, i knw you wil!
anws, im rambling! oh btw, i love e song 'airplanes' by b.o.b ft hayley williams!

omfg, freaking damn nice!
alright then, wish me luck for physics & e math on tues! gdbye! :D

someday, i hope ile find the right one for me.
somewhere in my little heart, im wishing it'l be you. (:

2010-04-06T10:04:00.003+08:00

heyllooooooooo~! :D
i missed school tdy! HAHAH, thanks to my uber paining cramps!
seriously, i freaking hate it! i got up in e morning, bathed & everyth.

then im like, ' can i not go to skool tdy?' cause its freaking painful. D:

whatever mann, now ile miss interclass volleyball comp! D:

i freaking wanted to play this like since sec 2!

oh well, i rmb telling 2e5 peeps tht i wished there were vb interclass

instead of our usual captain's ball & frisbee etc. & now?! this! D:

freak, its alright, its okay! without me, they've higher chances of winning!

cause my volleyball sucks with a capital S!

gdluck 4e2! you shal win & make us proud! :D

anw, im happy tht things are getting much btr.

im gna be a nicer person! ile avoid any form of conflicts!

this way, my life in AISS shal be btr right?! (:

so yeah, i shal rot off at home in bed al day! D: gdbye!

im trying to avoid you, but somehow ile have to see you!

oh & not just once, for godsake. D: damn, this is gna be hard!

2010-04-03T22:29:00.009+08:00

guess what, im feeling utterly bloody superduper miserable.

im screwing things up. seriously, i am. D:

when e year began, i tod to myself, '10 wil be e best year for me!

thinking bout it now, i guess i was freaking mistaken bout it.

it turns out to be as sucky as every year had been in AISS.

things which nvr happened are happening right now.

just when i tod things are flowing smoothly, smth just took place.

somemore between us, who've been frends for long? no way!

i admit it was our fault. so yeah, im really sorry.

i just wna apologise to sam & malini for what happened. D:

as for studies, im not really dng well! oh yeah, ive improved.

so what?! my math stil sucks. i stil dont seem to study tht much.

i stil seem like a stupid girl to everyone! so wtf?!

i stil get scolded by my dad despite my heavy attempts to do well.

' how are you gna be a lawyer if you go on like this?'

wtf, am i drugging or dng smth out of my mind?

al i do is talk to my bestf on e fone & go out! & thts a problem?

whatev, guess im sick & tired of proving myself to you alrd.

as for love, screw it! yknw why?! cause ure e good person what!

WOW. so now im lusting aft you? are you some hot sucker?

peepo actually think im imagining stuff! oh really?

well, i dont blame 'em cause to 'em, ure MR NICE!

to me, ure MR FUCKING COMPLICATING ASSHOLE!

who sits there & tries to figure out ure stupid fucked up actions?

ME! thts right, me. so fuck you & ure stupid self cause im done!

im done with you, ure retarded actions & whatev tht ure up to.

peepo are right, maybe i gotta face facts & move on with life!

someday i would wna ask you what those actions meant.

if it meant nth, ild fucking slap ure face for wasting my time.

im not being thickskinned, im facing facts. you deny, ule get it.

if '10 sucks for me, might as well be it! theres stil '11 what!

screw life screw love, screw school, screw everyth. D:

2010-04-02T18:38:00.009+08:00

heylloooooo!
kristen, diyaanah & me went to watch 'the lovely bones' tdy!

'remember me' is over at e theatres so we watched this!

oh, i would say e movie is freaking nice at certain parts!

its about this 14 year old girl who was murdered & raped by a psycho guy!

seriously sia, hes freaking crazy! ooh & theres a love story!

e girl liked this guy & he loves her although she's dead!

he kisses her when she came back as a spirit! cool much?!

kristen totally cried! okay, cause its touching!

anws, ild want someone to love me til e end! (: its sweet.

so yeah, i think its a movie everyone should watch!

a mixture of love & thriller! kinda confusing, yet nice.

oh btw, MYE is coming soooon! D:

im freaking scared lah cn! ive targetted 15 pts for L1R5!

okay, so im gna start studying real hard from now!

just 28 more days to e 1st paper! heheh, gdluck y'al! gdbye everyone!

for every word you say, another piece of my heart you take.
its funny but al of a sudden, im starting to miss you.

2010-04-01T21:45:00.001+08:00

heyyyyyy im back!
anw i love e song pyramid by charice ft IYAZ!
wohoooo, e lyrics are awesome with a capital A! check it out!

Pyramid- Charice ft IYAZ!

Shawty's love is like a pyramid (ooh)
We stand together till the very end (eh ooh)
There'll never be another love for sure (ooh)
Iyaz and Charice let we go

Stones, heavy like the love you've shown (shown)
Solid as the ground we've known (known)
And I just wanna carry on
We took it from the bottom up (no no no)
And even in a desert storm (yeah)
Sturdy as a rock we hold (oh)
Wishing every moment froze
Now I just wanna let you know
Earthquakes can't shake us
Cyclones can't break us
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh (ooh)
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh (oooh)

Cold (cold), never ever when you're close (close)
We will never let it fold (fold)
A story that was never told
Something like a mystery (yoh!)
And every step we took we've grown
Look how fast the time has flown
A journey to a place unknown
We're going down in history
Earthquakes can't shake us (oh)
Cyclones can't break us (oh)
Hurricanes can't take away our love

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (hey!)
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top, (at the top baby) like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing (wind is blowing)
We'll never fall just keep it going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay, like a pyramid (eh oh)

Like a pyramid girl let me show you
That I love you so much
That we gonna get through (oh oh)
Even when there's storms
I will never go, Ima be the one to keep you safe (hey)
Before was our love back it up more than enough
Holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough (oh oh)
Mother nature (hey) or disaster won't stop at happy ever after

Pyramid, keep it going (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)
Oh oh ooooh (like a pyramid, like a pyramid)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock (solid rock)
It feels just like it's heaven's touch (oooh)
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep on going (keep it going)
Forever we will stay (Charice), like a pyramid (what what)

Pyramid, we built this on a solid rock
It feels just like it's heaven's touch
Together at the top (at the top baby, at the top girl), like a pyramid (pyramid)
And even when the wind is blowing
We'll never fall just keep it going
Forever we will stay (ooh), like a pyramid

Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh
Like a pyramid like a pyramid eh eh

2010-04-01T21:05:00.013+08:00

suddenly felt like watching this cause it brings back precious memories!
'crush by david archuleta' always rocks!

heyllooooooo!
tdy is 010410, first day of a new month!
alright, im totally praying hard that it would be a great one!

like pleaseee, e even months always sucked for me! D:

jan was great, feb sucked, march was okay! so april how?!

okay, i knw its stupid of me to think this way!

but stil, its good to be kinda superstitious! like my own beliefs!

HAHAH, anw school's boring nowadays! BORING, with a capital B!

oh & its raining like everyday! feels nice but adds on to e gloominess!

everyone seems to be kinda upset these days! maybe its cause of Os!

speaking of Os, there aint much hmwk nowadays!

its always MT! like wtf, im drowning in tamil lah kay! D: D: D:

i just wna get an A1 for MT in june & forget bout it aft tht! (:

im gna get tution for e math! i really really need it cause my math sucks!

if i get on like this, ile be failing with an F9! ohmygawd, forget bout JC!

ive to go to a JC no matter what! actually, im thinking of MI!

kristen said i suit MI as its not too nerdy! HAHAH, same opinion!

i guess ile just focus on getting below 15 pts for L1R5!

ooh btw, finally gna watch 'remember me' with diyaanah & kristen tml!

yessss-ah, cant wait mann! gotta bring tissue packets!

cause its a very sad movie, according to many peepo!

nvm, i cn tahan e grief cause im good at it! woooh, im exciteed!

well, ile post bout e movie aft ive watched it kay!

ohh & e next movie ile watch is 'backup plan'!

im totally waiting for it to be released!

ooh & ive decided tht ile get on with life, not worrying!

like seriously, ile not be annoying & be over worried!

if its meant to happen, it'l! if its not, it wont!

either ways, ile just wait alright. (:

2010-03-27T15:12:00.008+08:00

someday when i get married, ile go to honeymoon at PARIS~! :D

heylloooo! tdy had geog & SS in school & i overslept!

al thanks to e fact tht i went back home from newton at arnd 3!

i totally realised tht newton is a place meant to be gone with ure friends, not parents!

like seriously uh, or ure boyf, which i dont freaking have!

well, thts what i get for liking someone & unable to be with anyone else! D:

anws yeah, ms dianah got us kit kat & i ate like 4!

i thought of keeping one for kristen but i couldnt resist it! HAHAH!

sorry uh, stop making me feel guilty alrd lah! D:

aft geog & SS, went to causeway with kristen! fattah & fadhil came too!

fattah was like looking at e toys section at metro!

actually, it felt nice to feel young again!

so aft tht, we al went back home! :D

ooh anws, i watched when in rome with kristen ytd!

ohmygawd, e movie's freaking damn romantic & nice! ahhh, love it!

its like, some supercool love story! i wish ile have a perfect love story someday!

so yeah, i think those hopless romantics should definitely watch it!

anws, had some weird moments ytd! it always happens when i dont want it to!

it hurts when we see each other & then turn around & walk away.

anws yeah, im done with it! gdbye! (:

2010-03-24T19:52:00.011+08:00

heyllooooooooo everyone~!
oh well, tdy was an awesome & unawesome day!

e awesome thingy would be tht kristen's baby msged her, wooh!

congrats love, you deserve to be happy! see, toldcha he loves you?! (:

im like freaking damn happy tht it happened kay!

e unawesome thingy would be tht ive realised things & its

time to make ammendments right now!

well, its never too late right? :/ i knw ile change my views when im happy, though!

but yeah, i realised tht theres nothing between us!

we're not even tgt so it was stupid to presume things, i guess. actions?! HAHAH please.

its like, suddenly i dno you! its been ages since we've talked so obviously i dno!

yknw what, i really miss talking to you as a frend.

it was a real short period of time but i stil miss it.

sometimes i wonder, why didnt we just stay frends?

why did things suddenly happen like an unexpected disaster?

why did i freaking fall for you knowing that nth would happen?

why are we pretending like we dno each other?

it hurts real bad to go through this. its simply too much to take.

nextly, nth much is happening! we're locked in our own worlds, dng our own stuff.

you affect my life alot, yes you do. but im not sure about e other way arnd.

so whatever, its best to play safe! there are Os to concentrate in btw!

i knw ile take ages to forget you so i wont bother trying.

e fact is that ile feel loss without you. but so what?! life goes on & ive to admit stuff.

al i wna do is to stop hallucinating & face facts! e truth is that its al over. D:

ure a great person, no doubt. its just that we arent meant to be.

for now, al i cn say is sorry, goodbye & al e best to you!