Thursday, December 22, 2011
I feel like crap tdy. Oh well, more like the past few days.
Everytime i tell my myself im gna forget you & move on, i can't.
It isn't as easy as it sounds. Although we nvr had much tgt, i can't move on.
If i can forget someone i liked for so long in a month, why not you?
Because, you were the reason i even forgot him.
So am i supposed to find someone new?
If that is the only solution, ild rather like you forever.
I don't wanna find someone & get hurt again.
With you, things are more realistic. Im not in my own fairytale.
I know what im doing. I know it isn't love. I know it's an attraction.
Yet, you mean so much. Those little moments mean more than you'll ever know.
I'm not gonna say you feel the same way because i don't know.
I won't make myself happy like how i used to previously.
But i do know it's only fair you give me what i deserve. An explanation.
A freaking long explanation to justify your own bloody actions.
All you did was to hurt me by coming in & out of my life as you please.
You took me for granted & i let you. I accepted you everytime you came back.
Because i trusted & believed that it'll be different.
That was one. But the worst part was that you lied through your teeth.
I didnt ask for this to happen. You started it & ended it.
I was just like a fool in the middle, accepting everything without complaints.
Sometimes i wonder, did you really mean those words you said?
Or were they just bloody sweet talking? Did not mean anything at all?
Maybe you thought it was easy to hurt someone who has been hurt before.
Well, congratulations! Because, you made me fail for the second time in life.
Or maybe i should thank you? For making me realise what a jerk you are.
Because, after you, ive finally woken up. I won't fall for bullshit any longer.